Jennifer Beinhacker - Art Outside The Edge
self portrait 11-loss
2012
mixed media on wood: acrylic painting and collaged photographs
15" X 14 3/4"
EXPLANATION OF THIS SELF PORTRAIT:

on september 6, 2012 my cat sooty died.

i have always had a cat (since collage).
sooty was sooty "five". all my cats have the same name and look as much alike as possible.

sooty was only 10 years old.....too soon for me to lose her.
she became very ill with chronic renal failure.
i tried everything. she was in the hospital on 24/7 hydration and monitoring.
after 3 days i brought her home so she could be with me. i hydrated her with fluid bags for 3 days.
then...i knew....it was time.

my sooty one lived for fifteen years. my sooty four lived for eighteen years.
i had expected my sooty to live for many more years...but it was not to be so.

sooty is buried in my backyard under my tree. she is resting there with sooty four......."my beloved friend'.

neal, helena and i had a lovely burial ceremony for her as she journeyed over the rainbow bridge:

just this side of heaven is a place called the rainbow bridge that connects heaven and earth. it is called the rainbow bridge because of its many colors. there are meadows, hills and valleys lush with green grass for sooty so she can run and play. there is plenty of food, water and sunshine and warm spring weather.
the old and frail sootys are young again. they play all day with each other.
there is only one thing missing. they are not with me...me...who loved them on earth.
each day they run and play until one day the day will come when suddenly they will stop playing and look up. their noses will twitch, their ears will go up, their eyes will stare brightly.
and they will run.......i have been seen. i will take them in my arms and embrace them all. they will kiss my face again and again....and i will look once more into their eyes.
then i will cross the rainbow bridge with them.....never to be separated again

i had not planned on getting another sooty. the loss of sooty (s) is too painful.

but i pined away...i missed my sooty so much...i saw her everywhere i looked.
and so....october 6, 2012, i adopted (from the animal shelter) sooty 6......four months old, looking just like sooty, sweet, playful, purring, a delicious kitty...and i am not lonely anymore....sooty is at home and in my arms once again.

sooty (six) is not a replacement for sooty (five). i will always...and still do.....miss my sooty.....she will always be "my baby"
but now i have sooty (six), "my little girl".

COMMENTS MADE:

May sooty "6" have a long and joyous life with you Jennifer !

Sorrrry!

Excellent !!!

excellent. full of symbolism, a wonder!

very powerful. so sorry to read about your kitty. i have many cat lovers in my family and know the importance they have in one's life.

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¡Excelente!

really a striking, impressive image, I can feel your whole sorrowful, gorgeous job!
. I'm so very sorry for your loss also, I can so well understand your mood and the great pain. My best regards

So heart-breaking...! Beautiful artwork, my friend!!
She will always have a place in your heart, Jennifer...!

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HI Jennifer! Looking at this self-portrait, it seems you need a hug...a BIG one!!! Giant tears and kitties are falling...yikes! Hope all is well with you...Happy Weekend!!!!

I am so sorry for the loss of your feline friend (((HUGS)))....Powerful tribute....

It really conveys your sadness Jennifer

Sooty '5', RIP....I went through some of the same things with a couple of my cats....it's a tough road, the hydration....and knowing when to let go. You did good. I'm glad you have Sooty '6', it's a good thing to have that special feeling for another little furry being.....I hope to always have at least one cat in my life. thanks for sharing this part of your life with us. bless you and Sooty with many years of happiness, good health, and I hope to see her in more of your paintings.

really a striking, impressive image, I can feel your whole sorrowful, gorgeous job!
I'm so very sorry for your loss, I can so well understand your mood and the great pain.
My best regards

I like it . I love cat too. Best for all

I am sorry about your cat, Jennifer...So awful to lose a pet...

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Thank you for your words Jennifer, very sorry for your loss too my friend.

I was sad too when I lost my cats.

Beautiful but sad! Stunning work! Take care!

I'm so sorry for your loss. We love our furry pets, and miss them when they are gone.

Oh Jennifer. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I know that pain all too well. I'm happy to see you found such a creative way to express it. Very well done.

Very sad, I'm so sorry for your loss, Jennifer !!

Sad and wonderful work !!

I share your sadness; you loved Sooty, there was a bond never to be broken with her.
I recall every one of my cats, the ones living and those dear ones departed.

I understand, Jennifer. I feel it is important to have these animals in our life, No, they can not be replaced. But each one brings their own special personality and magical gifts. I am glad another Sooty has come to watch over you

strong picture!

This resonates with emotion, one of your best, Jennifer

the faces here are mesmerizing and, as usual, each one can stand alone as a work of art...great art

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Jennifer, what an amazing work! I am a cat lover as well...and my heart goes out to you on your loss (s). I lost my two beloved kitties in 2012 and 2014....and still have not gotten another yet...but I want to. Hopefully soon! We are thinking of adopting a pair of kittens....

Wonderful, I love it ;-)

A powerfully expressive primitive work. Your description adds a lovely intimacy and context. Please allow me to convey my condolences for the loss of Sooty five. Congratulations on Sooty 6.






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